It is, and it's weird because I've nurtured this love. Perhaps I've made myself believe it was there or perhaps I've had a dose of reality. I don't know. But what I do know is that I have lost the love of sewing for others. I know the catalyst for this feeling. It's the new job. The new job is wonderful. I had no idea how much I missed that sort of stimulation, and to add to that to feel wanted and to be remunerated for my experience and knowledge. So if you ask me how I feel about my "new" job, I love it. I think that is where the love went. It moved on.
But at the same time I don't want to let go, but I can't see myself actively pursuing or even accepting sewing & dyeing work because if I do it means that I can't sew for me and the family. In the past I used to feel guilty when I'd take time out to make Mollie or Will something because I should be working on something else. As I sit here and type this I can see the Hilco poplin that has been sitting on a chair for 6 months that is intended for a Manhattan dress. It's been patiently waiting. Waiting too long. What else is on the chair? Some really cute fabric from Ikea that I bought to make myself a skirt. The cut out pajama pants for me that need to be sewn. The Leni and Roberta patterns that I traced out at SIT for Moo. So much has been pushed aside. It's making me wonder what else around the house has been getting pushed aside.
Nothing really changes nothing about the blog because it has never really been about business. It's about what I make, and that isn't going to stop. In fact I hope that I can make more fun and wonderful stuff because I like making crazy colourful clothing. I can spend the time to mull over designs and I can use my European fabrics with freedom because I won't have to consider how much they add to the final cost. It's good.
Speaking of fun and colourful, I made these two hoodies recently.
Pattern: Farbenmix Quiala
Fabric: Hand dyed cotton/spandex French terry
Embroideries: Florafox by Luzia Pimpinella (available at Huups.de)
Pattern: Farbenmix Imke (old paper pattern, not SCKL)
Fabric: Hand dyed cotton/spandex French terry
Embroidery: Florafox
Just an interesting fact, doing the embroideries for these two tops took 4 hours.